Stupid Autism

I vented and prob rambled alot in this and Im sorrry just reallllllllllly wanted to BEAT AUTISM UP!!!!!

I get sooooooooooooo Tired and I no other parents do too when you have this Beautiful Wonderful child and they do sooo good for however long that Autism Lets them be a Child!!!!!! and Then all of a sudden it peeps its lil head out and says heeeeeeeeeeey Guess what Im not gone! Im never EVER GONE!!!!!!!! Why cant this stuff just go AWAY AND STAY AWAY!!!! I no that parents, family friends all the above say and wish the same things every single day!  But truely it just URKS me soooooooooooooo DAMN BAD!!! Leave my Beautiful Baby Girl ALONE!!!!!!! Let her be!!!!!!!!!!!! Set my Baby FREE!! I will NOT GIVE UP, I WILL NOT FAIL HER, I WILL NOT EVER LET U DEFEAT US EVER!!!!!!!!!! SO get that threw you thick stupid skull Autism cus you SUCK ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PERIOD!

My Daughter does soo good most of the time shes Higher Functioning Autistic(Aspergers).  She's usually a normal( I no some dont like this term SORRY) lil Diva Princess with the Drama Queen ways!!!!!!! And then like I said it peeps its BIG HEAD OUT AND SAYS HI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ive taken your child under my spell, Ive hypnotized her, She wont be back for awhile, She wont communicate like she use too for awhile, She wont have eye contact, She wont want to be held or touched, she wont want to eat! But dont you worrry because you dont scare me and Ill always be here Ill always be around!!!!!!!!!!!!! WELLLL DEAR AUTISM!!!!!!!!!!! this is what I think of you!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will flush you down the toilet, I will Stomp on your face, I will Beat you to a pulp, I will punch you in the throat, My Baby Girl will smile, She Will Make eye contact, She will want to touch textures shes not wanted to touch before, She will smell a awful smell and not gag or puke!!!!!!!!!!!!! She will sit on my lap and she willl LOVE being LOVED!  I will not let you bring us down and I will fight til the Day I die to help her and any one else that needs help!!!!!!!!!!! I CURSE U AUTISM!!!!!!!!!!! I CURSE U THAT WE WILL FIND A CURE AND WILL TREAT U WITH KINDNESS because Im a true believer in KARMA and I will not stoop to your level I will STAND PROUD of who we are and who my daughter is and I will FIGHT til you cant fight no more!!!!!!!!!!

I wish that people could realize what parents with special needs children go threw, PLZZZZZ if this touches any one tonite plz remember to NEVER JUDGE A PERSON OR A CHILD!!!!!!!! Dont judge the mom in the grocery store cus her child is flapping their arms and screaming!(flapping is a part if autism its stimming).  Please Dont ask parents or family members or friends if the child crying or screaming is RETARDED, because you wouldnt want us to ask you if u was IGNORANT now would you????????........ Please just realize and think b4 you speak or ask questions Better yet!!!!!!! Just walk away DONT STARE! dont comment a low comment cus we will hear it even tho you think we cant because our child is screaming at the moment and we will wait til we leave the store and we will wait til we get our precious babies to bed b4 we lay down on our pillow tonite and Cry, YES Cry ourselves to sleep because we are soooooooooooo TIRED sooo WORE OUT!!!!!!!!!!! soo stressed that ppl dont realize what we go threw and that We try soooooo Hard to make our children feel safe and loved and then we have to take them out into this cruel CRUEL WORLD!!!! We are tired because even tho our children sit and Beat us and kick us and head butt us we know they dont mean us harm but that we cant let someone else help us because they dont want someone else they want ME!!! its nothing against you its just they feel comfortable and in routine with ME!!!!!! So as I said if you can just get one thing from this PLEASE REMEMBER TO THINK B4 YOU SPEAK or just dont speak at all!!!!!!!!!!!! Our children are blessings from God and we do struggle and we are tired but its not because we dont want our children its because AUTISM SUCKS ASSSSSSSS and we are tryin sooooooooooooooo hard to make it realize we WONT BACK DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks for listening to my rant and rave and Im sorrry its been so long and random!!!!!!!! GOOD NITE <3 mz.="mz." p="p" shartz="shartz">