Bunch Of Randomness!

Sooo Bid Dude brought me home a vaccum cleaner ours bit the dust, its kinda a bitter sweet feeling when u get a cleaning toy! Its like SCOOOOOOOOOORE I got a present then u open it and put it together well big dude put it together for me but still it gets put together and ur all excited then u started to think SHIT! I gotta use that thing :/. On Another Note got up to go to town this morning and ...

its pretty damn shitty that ur nervous make you to where u dont want to go down the road then ur like Ill suck it up even tho it is sprinkling the rain then ur shits get nervous and ur just shit outta luck!!!!!!!!! Once u get the nervous shits its on! No More Goin to town for NOBODY I dont care who you are especially when u live almost 25 mins from town that isnt happening :/. Good One Bowels another shitty day at home!

 

I asked big dude would he go with me to get my next tattoo he said he will be no part of my regrets later on in life how Shitty is that? I told em the tats that I have all mean something to me I dont feel as if I would ever regret them! I mean maybe when Im old and wrinkled and bed ridden and I have to sit and start at the same damn thing 24-7 yea maybe but thats cus I dont have a change in scenery :/ Stupid Big DUDE

Be Fair Warned I do LICK!!!!!!!!!!! Bwuaaaaaaaaaaaaah stay outta my personal space and u shall not be licked!!!!!!!!!!! Soo about 3wks ago I was christmas shopping with the Cus! And I see this awesome bike I just no Lil Miss Drama Queen would LOVE LOVE LOVE! She says Omg (cus) you should soo put em in layaway! get all three of the kids one! I thought Ill call BIG DUDE and ask him see what he says well since he was at work! I should of Known better! Called and asked what did he think! He said nahhh they dont need new bikes! just get something else soo I said Ok! Last nite Big Dude texts and tells me that lil dude wants a new bike WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A new WHAAT?????????? needless to say I def informed him when he got home that he totally deserved a punch in the throat! and I explained to him and showed him the prices of the bikes that were just on sale on blk frieday but we didnt need or want bikes then WTF! Good Job Big Dude now u will pay full price next time listen to the Wife!

 

Is it ok to blog from the throne?????? I say WHY YESSSSSSSSSS Blog away from the kiddy pool, Drop the lil terds off and go on about your day ;). I mean if its more cozy that way Go ahead >.<. Are you done hearing about my shitty bowels yet today? Just One More!! Good Afternoon to all My Shitty McButter Pants

 

Cockadoodle dooo!

OK SERIIIIIIIIIIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Littlest Dude(lil dude) comes to me Says!!!!!!!!!!! Mom! Cocks Cocks Cocks! I said LIL DUDE!! dont say that its a bad word!!!!!!! he said seriously I said YES!!!!! Lil Big Dude my oldest said thats why I told em to come tell u that! I said Lil Dude dont say that its bad !!!!!!!! Lil Dude says!!!!!!!! Me and My teacher was saying it We read it in a book!!!!!!! :O Lil Dude was u reading about Roosters he said YEP! I said ok Dont say that word he said but we was reading it in a book I said!!!!! Lil Dude its ok to read it in a book about ROOSTERS! but u dont go threw the house saying COCKS COCKS COCKS!!!!!!!!!! Tryin to not laugh at this damn kid! and His Brother laughin Lil dude says dont laugh!!!! Lil Big dude says Moms laughing! Ok soo what was the point in Mom hiding back the laughter and tears if your lil Big Dude ass was gonna tell on me in the first place!!!!!!!!!!!!! FREAKIN LIL SHITS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just some Rants and Raves :D

I have soooooooooooooooo many rants and raves tonite soooooooooooo Ill choose wisely :D and I hope I dont run you all off :D

1. the Dislikes Ive been posting welllllllll if you been following you noooooooooooooooooo THE SPAWN OF SATAN(Spiders) its baaaaaaaaaaack :O well its a new one but its still a DAMN HAIRY SPAWN OF SATAN!!!!!!!! I no your here somewhere I followed the web and was praying the hole time I wouldnt find it but it freaks me out that its here its here somewhere lol and I cant find it DAMN UUUUUUUUUUUUUU SPAWN!!!!!!!!!!!! GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AS I slowly took the broom and swept away the web I was waiting to swing and bat and scream and dance with the broom like NO OTHER!!!!!!!!!!!! but not yet but we willll seee if its Here or There soon :/.

2. NOSEY PPL!!!!!!!! why cant ppl just leave others alone!!!!!! why cant they just let ppl make decisions theirselves!!!!!!!!! HOW HARD IS THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what happen to u live u learn!!!!!! keep ya damn nose outta ppls business and make sure that you always ALWAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSS keep your opinions to yourself unless asked then u should sooooooooooo wait to even answer then! and think VERY HARD b4 answering! Just sayin!!!!!!!!!!! If they are already pregnant their isnt a damn thing you can do just be happy and get over it! If they are getting married there isnt a DAMN thing you can do but GET OVER IT!!!!!!! they are gonna want to do it more if u dont want it done ne ways soo get a reality check!!!!!!!!!!!! LEAVE PPL ALONE!!!!!!!!!! I always say MIND YA BUSINESS to my kids welp its time to start sayin it to Adults too I guesss :D MIND YA BUSINESSSSSSSSSSS :D

3. Ill quit there lol and I hope everyone has a GREAAAAAAAAAAAAT nite and will chat with you in the morning :D Ill be nice and leave ya with a

LIKE: The Beautiful Leaves in the falll and the smell of fall you no that smell :D GOOD DAY/NITE <3 mz.="mz." p="p" sharts="sharts">

Stupid Autism

I vented and prob rambled alot in this and Im sorrry just reallllllllllly wanted to BEAT AUTISM UP!!!!!

I get sooooooooooooo Tired and I no other parents do too when you have this Beautiful Wonderful child and they do sooo good for however long that Autism Lets them be a Child!!!!!! and Then all of a sudden it peeps its lil head out and says heeeeeeeeeeey Guess what Im not gone! Im never EVER GONE!!!!!!!! Why cant this stuff just go AWAY AND STAY AWAY!!!! I no that parents, family friends all the above say and wish the same things every single day!  But truely it just URKS me soooooooooooooo DAMN BAD!!! Leave my Beautiful Baby Girl ALONE!!!!!!! Let her be!!!!!!!!!!!! Set my Baby FREE!! I will NOT GIVE UP, I WILL NOT FAIL HER, I WILL NOT EVER LET U DEFEAT US EVER!!!!!!!!!! SO get that threw you thick stupid skull Autism cus you SUCK ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PERIOD!

My Daughter does soo good most of the time shes Higher Functioning Autistic(Aspergers).  She's usually a normal( I no some dont like this term SORRY) lil Diva Princess with the Drama Queen ways!!!!!!! And then like I said it peeps its BIG HEAD OUT AND SAYS HI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ive taken your child under my spell, Ive hypnotized her, She wont be back for awhile, She wont communicate like she use too for awhile, She wont have eye contact, She wont want to be held or touched, she wont want to eat! But dont you worrry because you dont scare me and Ill always be here Ill always be around!!!!!!!!!!!!! WELLLL DEAR AUTISM!!!!!!!!!!! this is what I think of you!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will flush you down the toilet, I will Stomp on your face, I will Beat you to a pulp, I will punch you in the throat, My Baby Girl will smile, She Will Make eye contact, She will want to touch textures shes not wanted to touch before, She will smell a awful smell and not gag or puke!!!!!!!!!!!!! She will sit on my lap and she willl LOVE being LOVED!  I will not let you bring us down and I will fight til the Day I die to help her and any one else that needs help!!!!!!!!!!! I CURSE U AUTISM!!!!!!!!!!! I CURSE U THAT WE WILL FIND A CURE AND WILL TREAT U WITH KINDNESS because Im a true believer in KARMA and I will not stoop to your level I will STAND PROUD of who we are and who my daughter is and I will FIGHT til you cant fight no more!!!!!!!!!!

I wish that people could realize what parents with special needs children go threw, PLZZZZZ if this touches any one tonite plz remember to NEVER JUDGE A PERSON OR A CHILD!!!!!!!! Dont judge the mom in the grocery store cus her child is flapping their arms and screaming!(flapping is a part if autism its stimming).  Please Dont ask parents or family members or friends if the child crying or screaming is RETARDED, because you wouldnt want us to ask you if u was IGNORANT now would you????????........ Please just realize and think b4 you speak or ask questions Better yet!!!!!!! Just walk away DONT STARE! dont comment a low comment cus we will hear it even tho you think we cant because our child is screaming at the moment and we will wait til we leave the store and we will wait til we get our precious babies to bed b4 we lay down on our pillow tonite and Cry, YES Cry ourselves to sleep because we are soooooooooooo TIRED sooo WORE OUT!!!!!!!!!!! soo stressed that ppl dont realize what we go threw and that We try soooooo Hard to make our children feel safe and loved and then we have to take them out into this cruel CRUEL WORLD!!!! We are tired because even tho our children sit and Beat us and kick us and head butt us we know they dont mean us harm but that we cant let someone else help us because they dont want someone else they want ME!!! its nothing against you its just they feel comfortable and in routine with ME!!!!!! So as I said if you can just get one thing from this PLEASE REMEMBER TO THINK B4 YOU SPEAK or just dont speak at all!!!!!!!!!!!! Our children are blessings from God and we do struggle and we are tired but its not because we dont want our children its because AUTISM SUCKS ASSSSSSSS and we are tryin sooooooooooooooo hard to make it realize we WONT BACK DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks for listening to my rant and rave and Im sorrry its been so long and random!!!!!!!! GOOD NITE <3 mz.="mz." p="p" shartz="shartz">

Nothing BIG

So Lil big Man and his lil Big man friend lol got their leaf projects done about 10 last nite!!!!! the BIG Dude of the house likes to wait til the last mintue to get things done I knewwwwww that was coming wether ne one else knew I knew or not!!! You know a women always knows lol. Ahhhhhhhh the wkend My kids will be home no 6am wake calls!!!!! OH DAMN I forgot Lil Miss Diva is like a Damn alarm clock and shes up at the butt crack of dawn nooooo matter what!!!!!!!!!! Oh to be young again NO THANKS! Whats on your agenda for the wkend?????? I dont really ever plan ne thing because something always interupts that ne thing ALWAYS LOL. On Another note I no we all have heard My dog ate my homework well............... I wonder what Lil Big Mans teacher thought this morning when he took his homework in after Momma washed in and DRYED it omg it look like the dog had chewed it up and spit it back out. I told em to take it to school and show the teacher that Mom did wash it and she was reallllllllllllly sorrry plz dont make him do sentences. We will see how that panned out about 4pm cus that will Def be the first thing he talks about when he gets home if he had to write sentences because of me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhh once again Motherhood!!!!! Good Day and I hope everyone has a Safe and Wonderful Wkend!! <3 mz.="mz." p="p" sharts="sharts">

How can you Judge?

Just a lil RANT I had today ok more of a RANT AND A RAVE!! Just wanted to share!!!!!!!

Why is it such a Big Damn Deal for ppl to make their own decisions in their lives???? Why do ppl have to sit and judge every single FART,SNEEZE,BURP etc. I swear if ppl could get their own lives set straight and PEACHY KING! And sooo DAMN PERFECT maybe they could leave Everyone else alone! PSHHHHHHHHHHT that was funny I NO!!! I Cant Stand a Person that Judges NE ONE! PERIOD wether be Race, Sexual Partner, Tattoo, Piercing or what not. I believe you Be YOU no Matter what! I will not JUDGE until you give me the ONE REASON to judge. And you no what that is RUDENESS, Then I choose to judge you and ERASE you outta my life! Thats the only Judging I will Do. And YES I do believe n Different Race Marriages, And YES I do believe in Gay MARRIAGES! I do believe that a Gay Family can Raise a Child! How can you ever really know who you are going to Fall in love with? How Can you say that Ppl with tattoos or Piercings arent GOOD parents? I no this is a DEEP subject and topic but this is truely how I feel. I no that times have changed and that its not like the Old days but Come ON PPL!!!!!! There is an Old saying "Dont Judge the Book by its Cover" I truely believe in that! I hope that I dont offend ne one here New or old, But this is truely my BELIEFS. Only God Can Judge us on that Judgment Day!!!!! I dont go to church I am not a Full blown Christian or ne other religion, but I do no that these are my beliefs. <3 mz.="mz." p="p" sharts="sharts">

SOO Much Goin on :D

WOOOOOOOOOOO WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! finally got the blog page up and goin on facebook :D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I sooooooooooo cant wait to get all this together and goin and get it goin good!!!!! Ive found a bunch of new blogs as well they are alllllllllll AWESOME PPL!!!!!!!! You have to come on over to Shits and Grins, Sharts and Giggles on Facebook and check out all the cool things Ive posted and you can follow and Like all the pages there!!!!!!!! :D Im new to this whole sharing the pages on here thing I willl Learn I promise thoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

https://www.facebook.com/ShitsGrinsShartsGiggles?ref=hl#!/

Now on another Note, Still doing alot of remodeling and painting and what not int he house! The Kiddos started back to school!!!!!!! I realllllllly wasnt ready for them to go I hate being here at the house bored outta my mind and Im sure that hubby and the House dont like it either since I tend to want to go and KNOCK a wall out or do something CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!! Ive got a couple projects right now I gotta finish b4 I start ne more I am nooooooot ALLOWED to start ne more I have set ground rules for myself lol, We will totallly see how this goes!!

Was down with no internet for about 3 or 4 days and I just got it back this week.  Was sitting here Enjoying the net and all of a sudden boom NO NET AGAIN! I was like WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!! soo I went outside where I heard a lawn mower and yup u guessed it they cut the line right into lol.  Guess thats what I get for the Honey to do list that doesnt really ever get done, and my big butt is not crawling under the house!!!!!!!! But at least the Honey is workin at the "REAL" job soo I cant complain there!   Im just soooooooooooooooooooo Overly excited about this blog stuff! Ive tried time and time again to do it and to get it up and goin but I just havent had the time or be able too.  I feel like this year/ School Year is GREAT TIMING!!!!!!!! none of the kiddos are doin sports this year sooooooooo there is more free time as well,  So why not get the mommy and wife to-do list DONE and BLOG!!!!!!!!!! I cant wait to see where this all goes!!!!!!!!!! Have a Great And wonderful rest of the WEEK!!!!!!!!! <3 mz.="mz." p="p" sharts="sharts">

Why do you think Marriages dont last now adays?

This is a looooooooooooooooooooong and winding road of emotions and thoughts for me!!!!!!!!!

I think that now days alot of ppl just get married to be married!!!!!!! They arent really in love, They think they are in love they want to be in love but I have said time and time again! You can NOT go hunting for love! LOVE will find you!!!!!!!!!! You dont just trip and happen to fall in love! I just dont believe that at all! I did get married at a young age!!!!!! I was 18 and my hubby was 16.  And let me just tell you!!!!!!!!!!! Love is a ROLLER COASTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! with many dips,turns,whoops,swoops, loops and SCREAMS! No doubt about that at alll! I have been married 13yrs now and been with my husband for 15yrs Aug. 27th 2012 made 15yrs for us.  We have Three BEAUTIFUL children! and I am sooooo proud of what we do have. 

I truely think that the reason most marriages done last is because ppl give up to soon, but then I look at it another way as well sometimes ppl just need to walk away and they DONT.  A marriage is suppose to be threw sickness and health til death do us part!   With todays Techinology and things that we have in this world to do things we shouldnt and be unfaithful and for those to be able to be stalkers on their spouses and figure out what they are doin wrong are MOST DEF some of the reasons Marriage dont last today!  And for some ungodly reason I do believe that there is sooooooooooooo much more Drama in this world today than there has ever been.  What in the world possess ppl to get into other ppls business.  Or to go behind ppl's backs and talk about others.  I just cant stand a TWO FACED person not what sooo ever and another one of my soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much hated is a LIAR.

For me as a Child of Divorced parents it totallllllllllly sucks ass!! I truely believe it but I also have had friends that lived with their parents that didnt get a divorce and thought it was either best to stay together for the kids or for some other reason and my friends say thats just as bad if not worse!  I have soooooooooo many mixed emotions with this topic its not even funny! I dont really no the right answer and I dont really no the Best Answer I just no that I feel like Love is a STRONG WORD, but there is soooooooooooo many different types of love to me tooo.  But to be IN LOVE its the best feeling you could ever have in your life and I truely believe that when u find your soulmate that it will last forever!!!!!!!!! The sad parts of this is that not everyone believes this??????? :O why dont you believe this??????? Its crazy that ppl feel that love dont last forever and that ppl fall outta love! I just dont think ppl fall outta love! I dont think it was TRUE love in the first place for you to FALLL outta LOOOOOVE no! I dont believe!!!!! For those ppl that say all the time that ppl change YES ppl change I no that, but to be such a negative nancy about love how can you ever truely tell someone that u are IN LOVE WITH THEM!!!!!!!!!!!! Do you ever let your guard down? 

People now days let other ppl or things come inbetween there marriages and their love for one another! People dont try as hard as they use too, People dont want one person to love! they want to have their cake and eat it too! thats not LOVE! that will never be LOVE and until they find TRUE LOVE!!!!!!!! I feel sorrry for those ppl and I hope that ppl can start to realize that if someone else isnt happy they want to make you miserable too!!!!!!!!!! 

I totally bumped all about this topic and prob didnt even make since but this was my rant and rave for the nite and I hope that I get some feed back on this topic and some feelings on this topic from your point of view.  Til then GOOD DAY :D

A Bit of a Change :D

Soooooooo I think Ive decided that Im goin to change this pages name and start to RANT AND RAVE and just share away!!!!!!!! its my page and I can do what I want right ;) RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!! sooooooooo Here we go on the repair/Construction and rebuild of Pooh to Shits and Grins, Sharts and Farts!!!!!!! yea I no its a bit much but I LOOOOOOOVE IT! and I just want to have a place to just be me!!!!!!!!!!!! Hope everyone will come and join in on the fun!!!!!! comment and share away!!!!!!!!!!!! At times it maybe Blunt but other times not soooo you are WARNED :D have a Great day and I hope to seee alllllllll My fam and friends here to RANT AND RAVE with me and of course New friends as well :D XOXOXO Pooh

Goodbye Red Hello Purple

I loooooooooooooooooooooved my Red bthrm but I was sooooooo ready for a change sooooooooooooo as I said in my last post I found a Chefrobe that I loooooooved the colors of and I decided to do the whole bathroom in that design and color here is the Chefrobe(spell Check)

 RED Bathrooom :D I stilll love it but I guesssss its gone now lol hahahaha

 Hello Purple!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and yes I still got some painting tooo do :D Im kinda short sooooooooooo I gotta get me a Step ladder to finish the rest :D

Im also going to probally paint the cabinets beneath the sinks not so sure yet but thinking soooo.  I will def post more pics when I get more stuff to decorate my new purple bathroom with :D XOXO

A Little Duct Tape :D

Ok so Ive been Remodeling here and there in the house this summer and repainting and what not!!!! sooo Im going to share some new projects Ive done this here is my first I want to share :D. I went to walmart the other day and seen Zebra Striped Duct tape I was like hrmmmmmmm Ill just get 2 rolls and see what I Can do with this :D. So here is what I got so far :D

The tools I used:
Scissors
Duct Tape(zebra Print)
& Anything I wanted to reburbish so far for the bthrm


                                       I Just wrapped the Toothbrush holder with the duct tape I started at the top because if u have extra u can either cut it off or fold it under the bottom.  REMEMBER u might not be able to have it sit level if u tuck it under the bottom.

 Ohhhh What else can I duct tape lol YUP my other set that we use in the bthrm I acutally bought this set at Family Dollar it came with the soap dish,Toothbrush holder Im Im thinking Glass not sure lol and the shower curtain and shower curtain hooks.  Im stilll Debating on what to do with the Shower curtain and Hooks. 

 Allllllll Done :D I just repainted my bthrm I found this  picture on Pinterest of a Chefrobe(spell check) that I wanted to paint something like it and OMG I soooooooooooooooooooooooo did My whole entire Bathroom lol hahah

The Color is a bit diff but I had to guess on the color but Im still workin on the rest of the decor Hope you liked this Blog take care XOXO

 My Nails out of many I have done!!!!!!!!!! I love this Teal Blue whatever color u want to call it lol its a sally henson polish I got from the dollar store!!!!

 my new flower garden the creeping flock was already there! and the to big bushses of lillies which havent bloomed yet and I added 2 more lillies in the middle I gotta get a picture of those!

 My Beatiful Field b4 hubby cut it down lol

 My Babies hand prints b4 they went to school for the last day they were playin and I had to get a picture of it oldest to youngest top oldest middle (left) and smallest (right)

 My New Betta Fish!!!!!!!!! I love them!!! IF u dont no much about a betta fish then Ill tell u what I have learned sooo far!!!!!!!!!! u can not put to males together they fight to death!!! this has a seperation for them both :D

And my Beautiful Babies which arent really babies ne more :(

And Last but not least!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! still doing alot of work on the house!!!!!!!!!!! been finding more and more ideas on Pinterest!!!!!!!! (www.pinterest.com) that site will drive u insane with things to do lol but its soooooooooooooo much fun too lol.  I got my china hutch top painted!!!!!!!!(Black) and got some of the scrapbook paper put in there hubby measured wrong!!!!!!!!!!!! sooo its stayin as is lol Im done fooling with it!! lol still learning diff things with nail painting and what not :D!!!!! Hope u enjoy all the pics :D

ok still tryin to learn how to do all this so bare with me!!!Anyone keeping track of American Idol its down to 3!!!!!!!!! and I truely believe the Best three are standing!!!!!!!!!!!! who do you think will end up being America Idol this year????????????? I realllllllllllllly cant decide!

Autism Walk

Ok Ok I no Im really far behind once again!!!!!!!!!!!! The Autism walk was AWESOME!!!! 3100 ppl showed up and walked with us on April 27th,2012. It was soooooooooooooooooooo GREAT!!!!!!!!!! We had our team Des Buttons on and our Autism Awareness Shirts and I looooooooove that soo many of my friends came out to walk with us! Des got a lil upset because of the balloons shes TERRIFIED of Balloons!!! But all in all my Friend let her play with her Iphone and Des had a blast she took pictures threw the whole walk and listened to music! Bopper and Mark of the Amazing Race is from our home town and they were there signing all the kids shirts!!!!! and the adults too lol Destiny was crying because of the balloons bless her heart! Bopper was tryin to get her to smile lol

April is Autism Awareness Month

Helllo Helllo Everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!! This Month is a Very Very VERY Special Month to me!!!!!!!!!! Not only is it Child Abuse Awareness month it is Autism Awareness month.  Autism is Very Close to my heart!!!!!!!!!! My daughter Destiny has Aspergers.  Lets sit back and learn a lil about Destiny. 

Aug. 30th 2003 My Beautiful Baby Girl was born.  I got to hold her for about 5 minutes do to everyone else with soo much excitement wanting to hold her.  I never thought nothing of it.  I finally got her in my arms and began to look at my Beautiful, Perfect lil girl and then something wasnt soo perfect???? she wasnt breathing right? the nurse came in and I asked her about Destinys breathing.  She said let me take her out and check her and make sure everything is ok.  SO once again didnt think nothing of it.  30 minutes later they come in sayin that my PRECIOUS baby wasnt breathing she had stopped several times and they were having to pump oxygen to her.  They didnt have ne beds open at one hospital soo she had to be shipped the opposite direction to another hospital to get the Help she needed.  Now remember I held my daughter for maybe 5 minutes if I was lucky!!!!!!!!!! My Dr was such a Saint that day and let me and my hubby go ahead and follow the Ambulance down to be with my daughter as long as I promised to BE SAFE and not over do ne thing since I just had her.  Destiny was born at 3;30pm on the 30th and she wasnt stable until almost 3am that morning.  LIFE SUPPORT!!!!!!!!!!! was the only thing keeping my baby alive.  At the time I didnt reallly realize it was life support which I no sounds stupid!!!!!! but Im totalllly glad I didnt realize it I think it would of made my worries alot worse!!!!!!! My hubby had to go back to our home town to take care of arrangements for our oldest son, and where he was going to continue to stay.  A wk had passed and it was time for my Baby Girl to be taken of life support.  The Dr said if she stops breathing just give her a lil nudge not hard just a lil to get her to wake up a lil bit and to breath on her own.  I thought ok......... I can do that.  He turned around to take her off the machine and she stopped breathing.  I poked this man in the back soo hard I no he had a bruise ummmmmmmmmm EXCUSE ME he said its ok just nudge her a bit mom and she will be ok, I thought once again ok............ I can do this.  Turning around again the doctor was workin on the machine and once again my baby wasnt breathing.......... Poke POKE POOOOOOKE in the pour Dr's back again!!!!!!!! Remember what I said mom just nudge soo finallly after it seemed like FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!! (really just few mins) we got her stable without the breathing machine.  She started to eat and she started to doin well enough to get to come home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We still had a long Journey ahead of us we just didnt no it yet! Destiny was Diagnoised with Respiratory Distress Syndrome at the hospital her lungs just didnt develop they had no reason why.  She was full term.  Over the months after bringing her home she would cry NON STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! soo the dr's thought she had collic.  We gave her meds for this and gave her meds, diff kinds of meds.  Nothing ever helped!!!!!!!!!! I can remember goin to families homes for holiday visits and I would literally just falllllllllll OVER asleep and they would take her and watch her for me while I slept I just couldnt stay awake.  I would go days and days without sleep.  I would be at my moms and we would be having a full conversation and then Id wake up!!! LOL and still be talkin about the stuff we were talking about but mom would be gone I had fell over asleep on her. 

                    Months and Months went by and I just kept sayin to my husband something isnt right? I no something is wrong.  No one would listen to me sooo as a mom I kept goin on and on and on.  Sitting every single day with this screaming, crying child and there were days I would sit and cry with her.  She was soo delayed in everything, Walking,Talking,Sitting, EVERYTHING!!!! By now Destiny was 18mths old.  I kept taking her to every single dr I could get in contact with until someone would help me.  Finally got her into first steps because of her delays!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK GOD for 1st Steps!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thats where everything began to come into place.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Destiny was Diagnoised in 05 on the Autims Spectrum Disorder.  I will never forget the day I got Destinys Diagnoises.............. Your daughter is on the ASD spectrum all I could think, alll I could feel was OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I thought I prepared myself for this I had heard the dr's and nurses say stuff about Autism I read up on it I researched it.  I knew I was prepared!!!!!!!!! RIGHT?????????? WRONG!!!!!!!!!!! you will NEVER be prepared for someone to take ur child from you!!!!!!! Yea I said it right Take my Daughter from me.  All I could think was I cant fix this, I cant kiss this boo boo and make it go away, She cant have surgery and it will get better, She can take meds but it dont go away!!!!!!! What do I do? How do I handle this? I kept my composure until I left the building!!!!!!!!! Once I left I just bursted out with tears, Cryin soo much I had never cried soo much.  For almost a week I was soooooooooooooooo LOST!!!!!!!! soo SCARED sooooooooooooo UPSET!!!!!!! I didnt no what to do I was already Depressed because she sat and cried all the time.  I was done I had GAVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
                      Then one morning I got up and I was a totallly different person!!!!! I knew I had to get up BE A MOMMY!!!!!!!! not only to Destiny but to my oldest son as well!!! I knew that I was the only one that could help her totally.  That could get her the help she needed.  That could make ppl understand what she needed and how she needed it!  I had started lookin up not really looking up as in a good thing but not as depressed, Feeling better and knowing what I needed to do.  I wasnt going to let this get me down I was going to do everything in my power and in my will that I could to get my baby help!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Destiny was diagnoised at first with PDD-NOS(pervasive development disorder-not other wise specified) she then was reevaluated 3yrs later and she was diagnoised with Aspergers which is a higher functioning Autism. 
                             Over the years b4 her 2nd eval.  We did Therapies, OT,PT,Speech, she had a dietician because she was soooooooooooo malnutrientioned because of her sensory issues.  She had Sensory Intergration which is something that is always hard to explain at times.  The way I always tell ppl is its like u have a apple pie u urself can see,taste,smell and feel its an apple pie Destiny cant do all those things at once!!!!!!! I no that probally sounds silly but that was my way of explaining!!!! We did alllllll the therapies until Des was 3 then she transitioned over into school!!!!!!!!! B4 we ever got that far I just want to Explain to Everyone!!!!!!!!!!! how hard it reallly was to be a Parent of a lower functioning child!!!!!!! and that I give KUDOS to those parents who do it every single day and to those parents who have more than ONE CHILD with Autism!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD BLESS U EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!! 
                                On a typical day for NON-VERBAL Destiny,  She would cry non stop alll day everyday!!!!!!! She would kick and scream like she wanted me to pick her up sooo I would pick her up,  As soon as I picked her up I was beat to DEATH! by my own precious lil girl! she doesnt no what shes doin but yet I cant sit here and let her headbutt me and Kick me and hit me soo I put her down!!!!!!! This was an on going thing to do everyday, every hour on the hour with her for THREE YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!! She played in her stool she played in her urine EVERY single diaper !!!!!!!!!!! and ne one that has kids no how many times a child Poops and pee's.  She was soooooooo upset all the time and didnt want clothes on at allllllll because of her sensory issues.  Clothes bothered her she hated them!!!!!!!!  I didnt want to ever leave the house because when we would go to Walmart or Wendy's wherever she would be screaming and crying and ppl would stare!!!!!!! They would look at me and my family like we had just beat the holy bajesus outta my daughter and u no what we hadnt touched her at all!!!!!!!!!!!! People would come up to me and ask me what was wrong with her,  I didnt no how to explain to them at first what was wrong and Id just say she autistic and she has these break downs but she is fine, They would say ohhh ok shes RETARDED!!!!!!!!! and this is why I hate this word!!!!! ppl can be sooooooooooo CRUEL!!!!!!!!!!!! Open ur eyes ppl and realize what u say b4 u say!!!!!!!!! think about what u are saying b4 u say it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I stopped goin out as much with Destiny for my feelings and hers!!!!!!!!!! I knew she could hear ppl and I knew she could see ppl, and I didnt want her to hear that ignorance!!!!!!!!!!
                         I am proud to say that Destiny Railynn has come soooooooooooooo far in just her 8yrs of life!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Shes a Beautiful, Talented, Sweet and loving lil girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She loves to dance, sing,draw and ne thing to do with music.  I love when I go in and I talk to teachers at her school and they tell me that she has come so far that they can see shes come sooo far!!!!!!!!!! Because Im not the only one Destiny has touched in this world and I wont be the last!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I no I have been soo random and all over the place with this Blog but I just want u to no that for 1. A mothers love is the best love u could ever have!!!!!!!!!!! 2.  Autism has touched my family and we want to help get the awareness out!!!!!! 3.  Dont use ignorance!!!! think b4 you speak.  4.  I love my children with all my heart and I will keep fighting until we can do something for all the families struggling!!!!!! 5. Help us get the Awareness out!!!!!!!

Thank you and God BLESS!!!!!!!!!!! XOXOXOXO Angie

Following other Bloggers!

I follow alot of other bloggers and I love to listen to their stories and learn new things with their Crafting and what no.  I would love for everyone to plzzzzzzzz read this BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Make sure read PAST!!!!!!! the TITLE PLZ!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks!!!!!!!! http://deborah-bryan.com/2012/03/28/our-baby-is-going-to-experience-racism-someday/

Now On another note Im tryin reallllllly hard to keep this blog going, Ive been sick, kids been sick soo Im tryin to do the Mommy and wifey thing plus my graphics and everything else!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope that everyone is having a great week!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and Dont forget April is Autism Awareness Month

Good day well nite lol

RIP My Guardian Angel

On March 25th of 2008 I laid to rest a Beautiful,Wonderful and very important women in my life.  I've known her since I was 6yrs old.  She was a 2nd mom to me.  She always told me I was like a daughter she never had.  She took my mom,brother and I into her home and treated us like family.  She loved us and was always there for every single Special event in our lives, Birthdays,Graduations and My wedding.  She got to see my children when they were younger but I soooooooooooooo wish she could of seen my new home and my children one last time b4 she passed away.  Plans were for her and mom to come and see our new home we bought I was soooo excited and just days b4 she got to do that she passed away.  Naomi Jean Rogers was one the most important ppl in my life and I will NEVER EVER forget her and NEVER EVER want to forget her.  Im goin to try my hardest to make sure my kids remember memories that I have of Noni(naomi).  I made a photo frame/scrapbook of her and all my memories I love it.  I will post pictures! I wrote a poem for her as well Not yet sure Im ready to share that.  I just wanted to vent a bit on a very truely special person n my life and show you how I dedicated a piece of my wall to her!!!!!!!! Ive also lost several other close members since 08 and I am totally thinking about doin Dedications on a piece of my wall for them as well.  I hope u enjoy and Thanks for reading!!!!!!!!!!! XOXO Pooh 

P.S the lil guy sporting his undies is my youngest when I first made the picture asking questions about the pictures and Naomi I love the picture :D.

American Idol Ne 1????????

Ok Im totally obsessed with American Idol is ne one else???????? I really love alot of the contestants this year and really hate to see them go :( .   Have you watched every Season of American Idol? Can you remember who won which American Idol?  I watched almost everyone of the season I believe and Im totally a Commited Fan but I cant even remember all the winners lol.  I didnt get to watch last seasons AI but I told everyone in the house that this season I would NOT miss a episode unless it was an Emergency lol. 

       On another note Spring Break is almost over, Ive reallly truely enjoyed the kids being home though.  It gets lonely in this house when hubbys gone to work and Kids are gone to school :/.  I hope everyone is having a Great Week!!!!!!!!!!! its been soooooooooooo Beautiful here.  Take Care XOXO Angie

Hello Again

Sooooooooo Ive been absent once again, sheww Kudo's to those who blog everyday :/.  I try but its soo hard at times.  Spring break started today for my three kiddos.  My Husband is once again down and sick with the flu or something sooooooooo Look out momma cus Im sure ur have it b4 its over with I HOPE and PRAY NOT! Not much has been going on lately! Im soo getttin ready to start Spring Cleaning/decorating/painting soo I will have alot of pics from that hopefully soon!!!!

OH YEA April is Autism Awareness month and Im not sure If I have said it yet or not but My daughter has Aspergers and we will be walking in the Clay County Autism Awareness Walk again this year we walked in it last year TEAM DES all the way!!! I cant wait it makes me soo Emotional but sooo proud that everyone is trying to get the awareness out. 

Have a Great Week

Hello All

Today was Crazy hat day and I was a bad bad Photographer I didnt get pics of the kids and there hats.  Aunt helped them make there hats last nite while Daddy and Mommy were at a funeral.  Tomorrow is Pajama Day.  I was excited about them goin to school friday for Wear your sunday best but they now are saying they aren't having school Friday.  So we will see lol.  I hope Everyone is doing Great and I hope to be here to Blog again sooon!!!!!!!!!! XOXO Pooh

Happy Birthday Dr. Seuss!!!!! WEEK!!!!!!

Ok so our kids always celebrate Dr. Seuss' Bday with Dr Seuss Week, Well they started last friday and sooo far we have had Crazy hair day!!!!!!! Pictures posted soon!  This week coming up we will have Pajama Day, Spirit Day(wear your school spirit), Crazy Hat or headband day, Formal Day (dress in your sunday best) , and Nerd Day not in the right order but that is what we will be doing.  Also will posting Pictures up of those as the days come along!!!!!!! Now for the most Important Post of my Day.  We have had alot of Tornados touch down all around us here in Kentucky.  I would love for you all to go to http://www.facebook.com/#!/groups/184930758285043/ and see if you can help these ppl.  They are posting where you can drop things off to ppl who have lost there homes and there loved ones.  They are posting what these people need.  Plz Plz PLZZZZZZZZ go and check out this page!!! Im gathering up what I am goin to donate and give to them asap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Back to the Dr. Seuss Bday Week,  Here is My Children and there crazy hair day Photos. 

Hello Again!

Ok sooo Time to do my first Vent!!!!!!!!!!!! more like my first I LOVE THIS VENT!!!! The big new craze is PINTEREST!!!!!!!!!!! ohhhh yessssssssssssssssss PINTEREST(Marvin Gay Voice)  I loooooove this site I love love love this site! and if you have not checked it out yet you should, You MUST!!!!!!!!!! check it out!!! its a Crafters dreams come true for sure but there is sooooooooooooooo soooooooooooooooooooo sooooooooooo much more to it!!! They have hair styles , food, crafts, Fashion, and soooooooooooooooo soooooo much more!!!! I hope everyone is having a great day!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XOXO Pooh

Pinterest

Gonna Try this again!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL

Ok Ok!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ive slacked sooo much lately on bloggin well not just lately for awhile!!!!!!!! I hope that everyone has been ok! Im really truely ready to start this up and get this goin again!!! I did the hairbows for awhile but it is not something I feel I can do and Sell and make money on!!! On a new note Im still doin graphics and Photography I loooooooooooove doin graphics soo much. And of Course Spending time with my Family and Friends!!!!!!!!! So this is my new up and comin Bloggin!!!!!!!!!!!! I gotta figure out how to do all of it soo bare with me! XOXO Pooh

Introducing Pooh and Her Family In Picture added !!!!!!!!!!! My Beautiful Kids Oldest to youngest Billy Cameron (11) Destiny Railynn(8) and Cayden Scott(7) and that Sexy Man is my Husband of 13yrs (married) 15yrs(in all). Billy O. Smith :D Hands off!!!!!!!!!!!! Back Away :D I hope to try to Blog Either Once a week or Everyday we will see what comes first lol Take Care and Thanks again for Following my Blog :D